I found out today that I've been nominated for two different awards, one for grad student service and another for advocacy for commuter students.
It's the same feeling I got when I won the award of excellence for the building I work in a couple years back. Me?
I guess I just do what I do and exist in a vacuum of sorts. I forget there's always people around watching me. I appreciate that they think I do good work … but I always feel undeserving.
Not that I don't work hard or anything, because I do. But I guess I just see it as something that you're supposed to do, regardless. I always hold myself to the standards of the others I see around me, and wonder how I measure up. In my own eyes, I don't, which is probably why I find it so weird that others think I'm great (their words, I promise you).
Am I really that good? I always want to keep pushing to live up to these standards people seem to have for me … I just don't want to fail them.