This is neither the correct “Day 10” (about a week late) nor my most guarded secret. But it is something I grapple with every day. I’m 26 and I still don’t know what I want to do with my life. I enjoy a lot of things, but I’ve always felt that I’m not that great at the things I really love. Somehow, I’m fantastic at the things I get no enjoyoment from, like being a journalist. I have two BAs that I don’t think I really “use” because I don’t have the heart to be a reporter and have too many personal conflicts with basic principles of the field. So now I’m about to finish grad school and when people ask me what I want to do … I’m not really sure. The only thing I really know is that I want to work with students and I want to help people. They’re amazing to be around, and I really want to help them navigate the college environment, red tape and all. I wish I had figured this out 5 years ago, but … such is life.
I’m Cpt. Use a Smiley When Words Won’t Suffice. o_0 So, this isn’t really a smiley, but it’s close enough. This represents my “wtf is going on?” feeling. Life’s been hectic lately (when is it not) and sometimes all I can muster is this face while I summon the strength to keep going. 😐 Again, this is my life. My grin and bear it face. Things aren’t totally bad, nor are they good. Neutral … or as neutral as things can be.
Aow! The fun stuff. I’m sure people are dying to know what grinds my gears … in a good way. Smart guys – I love guys who are smart, know they’re smart an try to get smarter. I think I like it so much because I can learn from them. This isn’t to say I need them to have beaucoup degrees or anything like that (though it doesn’t hurt); I just want them to love learning and knowing as much as I do. Guys into music – Ooh that’s so hot! It just works out so much better when the guy I’m dating loves and appreciates music as much as I do. It doesn’t even have to be the same taste, either. I’m open to all music, and I’d hope he is, too. Funny guys – there’s nothing better than a guy who’s funny. Frankly speaking, I’m easily distracted, so I can be angry as hell but if he can make me laugh he’s won the battle. And he has to be off-the-cuff funny — make light of life and the ridiculous situations and sights it puts in your path. Yep, that’s it.
This is an unfair post because nearly everything turns me off LOL. But seriously, here are the deal breakers: Convictions – there’s nothing attractive about a criminal record, period. I realize people make mistakes or have to learn certain lessons, but there’s a line I won’t cross – that’s it. Ignorance – There are few things more annoying to me than someone who doesn’t or has no interest in thinking critically about the world. This isn’t to say I want someone who always critiques everything. But I do want someone who is capable of seeing past the obvious to understand what things mean, what their impacts are, and the like. Short men – This is probably my only physical hang-up in dating. I refuse to date someone shorter than me. The perfect height to me is somewhere between 5’10 and 6’4″. Any taller than that is kinda creepy to me. Multiple kids – I’m fairly sure I don’t have it in me to be a step-mom, but I also acknowledge that I already have a kid so I’m slightly more amenable to consider dating a guy with a kid. But more than one? Either you’re reckless with your sex or […]
I’m a fairly reserved person, that can at times border on antisocial. As a result, I keep a small circle, both friends and family. Choosing the five who mean a lot to me won’t really be too difficult, because … I just don’t keep that many around! The one I birthed – there is no love stronger than that of a mother for her child. At least, in my world, that’s true. She’s pretty much the greatest thing ever, even when she’s at her worst. The one who birthed me – I understand my mother so much better now that I have my own child. I love her to pieces because I understand how much she has done to give me a good (albeit sheltered) life. I appreciate that. The one I created life with – Hm. What to say. We have the most complicated, yet simplistic relationship ever. Things are going well, and I’m good with that. I love that we created such a beautiful little person and are connected in a way that I’ve never shared with someone else before. *shrug* The one who I confide in most – She is the one who can play the angel […]